dang

so i talked to my counselar yesterday. and he said if i dont get my shit together, he said that even the Cal States wont even accept me. WTF!! Are you kidding me? Dude….i mean, that’s heavy. unbelievable. I wanted to cry. And he said even if i pass with a C….he said even the private schools might even be like “Nah never mind.” Dammit man. thats freakin crazy. My mom was pissed. UGH….Dang. If i end up having to go to a JC….I think i’ll see about going somewhere other than here. Like seriously. Maybe Sacramento…hmmm…maybe. But hey. I still see Harvard in my future. So no giving up yet. Hell, I aint gonna give up until they say “Oscar it’s too late, you messed up bad and you have to go to a JC.” I honestly think that I would break down. I would have let so many people down…..My mom, Joe, my brothers, Auntie Joyce, FUCK…Chava will probably kill me…like literally. Damn. But on top of that. I would have let myself down terribly. I mean….I’ve always talked about goin to the big time…..goin to an IVY league….gettin my masters….gettin paid sick like….it might not happen…./

HOWEVER!

I was sittin in my math class…and my teacher says she is gonna extend the extra credit to friday and said if i do a good job i could earn up to 50 points. And i’ll hold her to that. And she said that if we present to the class, we get extra credit towards our final……DAYUM!!!! I was like….fuck i gotta do this. So there’s 12 standards. Im gonna do as many as I can. But I am gonna do at least one. I freakin need this. SO there is hope. and for my psyche class, that project is gonna save my ass. Like seriously it is. and im gonna have to fuckin read that damn book like a bajillion times. I need to get at least a C on the final. Or idk, i gotta talk to her. but dayum. I calculated…and if i play my cards right…i might be able to get a 3.2 at least. Damn i need to get that.

Well, we’ll see how it all goes down. OMG….if when i go to my great college, i’ll cry and just think…..hey u were the biggest procrastinator ever….u took your time. People thought you werent gonna make it. and look at you now you awesome son of a bitch. hahaha